i've got to many questions for you. questions i'm sure you CANT answer.
that is, without giving some crap excuse.

have you ever been in a situation when you found the words to say, but no one wants to hear you out? well, dealing with it is one thing, but when it comes to me, it just gets etched in my head; no matter how i try to erase it from my memory. and really, whoever said "sticks and stone will break my bones but words would never hurt me", hasnt really been out long enough.

if you wondered who my msn nickname(.//suddenly i see-why the hell you mean so much to me;and i mean it) was pointing to, it is to her. and for once, i really meant what i said. i tried not to say anything stupid, but it didnt turn out the way i wanted it to be. i really dont know how to face her in school. to think that we were once best friends. and because of hearsay,everything just shattered, and she was just using me to get info. for what, i dont know. and i dont want to know. even if she tells me she still cares, i dont. it has been almost 3 mths since the whole incident happened and its not easy to get back on your feet again. i admit it, i do over-analyse. but why did you have to drag me down "memory lane" again? i dont want to be reminded of the past year, or the great times we had hanging out together after school. you dont reside in my life anymore. sorry girl, i work better alone.

she'll never read this. i know she never will. and to think she actually cared. ignore this post, seriously. i am going to come back in a few days, weeks or even months to realise that i have said something stupid again.

-we dont talk along the same frequency anymore-

shee-sh.like i'm a blur IDIOT.AS IF LA.AS IF.you don't care and yet u say all this? you don't care and yet you say HI to me on msn. as if nothing's happened? YOU DON'T CARE? maybe you just don't want to lose face.

please.and everything didn't shatter cos of hearsay.you still don't get it.seems like you never will.either that or you do.but u just don't want to face it.

YOU KNOW WHAT?

i'm wasting my time.dwelling on past issues.please don't give ur class comm trouble.

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