you know how you get that feeling that you're being replaced. and the feeling that so many people hate you. and no one stands up for you cos they dont know you need them. and how people think you're exaggerating, though maybe you are. and how everyone seems against you. its like. you write poems to make other ppl who're having problems feel better, and you cant even help yourself. you just feel so awful. and the screen gets unclear. cos your tears make you unable to see clearly, while you try to force them away. trying to hold them back. to make others think you're alright. to try to tell yourself you'll be okay. cos you've always been able to hold things together. what if you cant anymore. and the people you want to be there for you, just seem to have forgotten. yea, exactly like that.

they just forget.
they just forget about you.

they just forgot everything.
everything they ever said before.
everything they meant.
they just forget.

but you.
you cant forget.
cos you dont forget.
you dont forget.

and thats what hurts the most.
not being able to tell them.

they dont know how much you need a hug. just one sentence to let you know they care. and it'll all be okay. yea. they underestimate how much they mean.

you hope it'll be the same again someday.

sprinkled in glitter.
9:00 PM