Thursday, August 17, 2006
I’m worried. Oh man. I cant stop worrying. I’m generally a worry bug. And i admit to being SLIGHTLY affected by Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD).
Shucks! I’m worried. Oh man. And there’s tournament this Saturday.
Up goes the stress levels.
And pressure levels.
And worry levels.
Oh man.
I’m a worry bug.
And i realize i get affected by people too too much. It’s like. You know. You think you’re so close to them. You can like tell them everything. And when they break up. It feels as though it’s happening to you. When it isn’t. it’s like. You want to make them happy. So much that you try to take away their sorrow by making it your own. It can’t be hurting you. It doesn’t show up in your grades. And in school, you’re still the same happy person. But somehow. Before you sleep at night. It just doesn’t feel right. It just doesn’t. cos it prolly isn’t. it’s like yea. you get affected by people you’re close to. To the extent that you take away their sadness by making it your own. And that’s a good thing. You love them so much. That you’re willing that make sacrifice. The only sadder thing is that there’s no one to take away your sorrow.
How ironic can that get. You can make people happy. But you cant make yourself happy. i guess i'm just like that. So many things just shout irony.
Never really told you but thanks. Like the one person i can whine to.
I’m sad because he’s sad. And she’s sad because i’m sad that he’s sad and he’s sad.
It’s like. You’ve gotten so close at some point of time. … Is as sad as a break up. Omg. Why like that. So effed up la please. So effed up.
I saw the two of them today. They’re so happy.
My prayers are working. crash.Sorry i shouted at you today Audrey. I didn’t mean it. It’s just i got so annoyed and frustrated. And i didn’t realize i shouted and all. Sorry.
sprinkled in glitter.
5:48 PM
