Monday, September 11, 2006
i'm a failed chemist man.TOTALLY.yea. no hope.YEA.shucks.but i wasnt as depressed as i was when i didnt get my redox.i started tearing la.and when i tea, it's actually considered as MAJORLY crying.cos i'm holding back tears, so thats why i only tear, and not turn into a human hosepipe.MMHMM.i guess someday i'll know that i really study very hard, and deserved to have passed, then i'll cry for chem.though during chem tosday, when i got back my paper (i failed btw)i recalled how much i cried during mid-years.I CRIED LIKE SHIT LA.ans when i cry, my ears shrink and turn damn red. so yeah.it was like that man.and i was whining.i failed both my sciences ):my dad's gonna make me quit choir.and we're getting A maths next ):i know i failed that.it's gonna make me cry more ):i failed by ONE MARK okay.one freaking mark.one freaking mark.i couldve passed.I COULD HAVE.I COULD HAVEI COULD HAVE.and i realised i was just making myself feel worst.and i was just saying all that to give myself more reason to cry.and i just realised that today.four months to realise that crying cos of your studies isn't really a good reason.even if you strongly feel you didnt deserve that grade, well you got it.and nothing you do or say can change it.but you COULD HAVE done better.COULD HAVE.you can change anything before it happens again.YOU CAN CHANGE ANYTHING YOU WANT.COS ITS YOU.and yea. i feel really strongly about people when they're sad or down.i can't take it.esp if they're my friends.i'd want smth done about.and i'd do anything to make them happy.and i realise that.hmm.perhaps i should be like a councilor or smth.YOU CAN CHANGE ANYTHING YOU WANT.ITS JUST UP TO YOU WHETHER YOU MAKE THE EFFORT TO.and i'll help you paint that rainbow.SO YES sam.you can pass anything you want.it's just up to you whether you make the effort to.but sometimes i'm just not strong enough.i'm lacking in the department of persistance.I should learn from the elephant who sat on the egg.oh, and i miss NAT.and all the fun we have every saturday with the legion guys man.no homework again.but i need to do art.and i'm still sick man. shucks.yea.I KNOW YOU KNOW THAT I KNOW YOU KNOW that i sound like a BIMBO. and i scream like one. and i'm gonna sound more like one now. but ah, what the heck.i'm having a bimbo moment here and now.. so yeah, bear with me..
i want my new earrings SO BAD. raffles city, i'm coming this week.I SO AM please.its LIKE OMG.I SO should have bought them on saturday.LIKE YEAH!why didnt i!oh man.i so should have la.haiyo.now i have to waste time and go there JUST TO get them.OMG! what if it's SOLD OUT.wah. i'll cry la.hmm. it's a sign from GOD that i shoudnt give up THIRTY FOUR bucks.unless any kind soul wishes to SPONSOR them.HAHA, then i wouldnt be BROKE.but nah.i'm getting them by hook or by crook!I WANT my earrings SO BAAAAD.really man.yeaaaaaa.OKAY.Now that thats over, you can call me a bimbo. TSK.
as eugene would say- CHEAP THRILL LA.
sprinkled in glitter.
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