Sunday, September 17, 2006
walk the star-dusted road
feel the path and see how it winds
touch the gravel, kick the sand
try to do all you can, while the sun shines.
see the sun setting
hear the fluttering of wings
sense the rush to go somewhere safe,
to where no one knows, while the sun shines.
you wonder why
ponder your actions
plan the next course of action
and run, while the sun shines.
the sun, just a little more before it's gone
and the silence creeps
a silent scream and a haunting weep
wishing you weren't here, while the sun still shines.
the darkness hastens
its chilling demeanour terrorizes your footsteps
from long strides and leaps to small baby steps
all these after the sun had shined.
you see your impending doom
an arrow of hate and death shot from a bow
you feel the pain, the hurt. and go down and hit the floor hard, cold and lifeless
writhing in pain, while the sun died long before you.
feel the agony
touch death's hand
but it goes away, refusing your hand
and leaves you there to live on.
you must wonder why
and i wondered just as much too.
a choir of angels
they hear your agonising cries
pick you up and heal your wounds
just like they healed mine too.
that's not how it ends
you awake from it all the very next day
to think it was all a dream
but you receive a half a million smses on your handphone
and all of them seem to say: take care yeah? hope you're better now.
you realize that those angels you saw
weren't really too faraway
in fact if you can recall how they looked like
you'll know what i mean.
they looked a lot like your buddies in school, your pals at church, your old classmates, your newfound friends, your girlfriend/boyfriend and all.
while you're lost in your train of thoughts
all of them in that mental image of yours seem to smile for a split second and then the picture stays the same for eternity.
you treasure that moment,
that dream and hope that it will last you a lifetime.
and now you wish that you could make a difference in their lives too.
but fret not for it is never too late.
sometimes all they need is a listening ear, a helping hand or just your prescence alone will do.
and there's God too. He'll be your friend, till the end of time.
FRIENDS are the ones that will hold you together. when things get bad.
when you are in your darkest hour.
treat them with respect,
love and care.
and you will deserve the same.
never abandon your friends,
for those moments will live on
in your heart.
quote Alex.
i never knew he was such a strong writer.
i dont know what i'd do without my friends
they make up the stars.
i'll be going for OBS soon.
i'll miss so many people!
EUGENE, NAT!
JESS, SU ANNE, SHIRIN, JANNAH !
take care (:
and pray i dont have to kill a wild boar for food.
TSK MARCUS TAN.
and congrats to melvin for guessing my CCA.
HAHAHA. i shall list what, marcus, marcus and melvin guessed.
1.Tennis
2.Netball
3.Gymnastics
4.Martial arts (!?)
5.Squash
i almost died. thanks for guessing, melvin! HAHA.
i shall now blog abt YTD!
the art thing was SO SUPER FUN.
once in a life time chance.
never in my life have i wasted so much paint, or had so much fun!
rolling in red paint to create this masterpiece with tsi yin.
and lying on paper laid all over the floor and painting our outlines with brushed the size of broom sticks!
major paint wastage.
SO FUN.
no grades.
no prep.
pure expression.
tsi yin and i walked round toa payoh with our painted t-shirts.
SO FUNNY.
this person in NIE asked to have us photographed. LOLS.
catechism then mass.
THANKS MARC, MELVIN, JARED and EUGENE for all touching the obs stuff eugene helped me get..
special mention to jared- for waiting for me? haha. OOPS. sorry la.
and melvin- who told me how to use all the stuff.
i still think i'll end up burning my finger.
stood outside macs for quite a long time. deciding what to do.
he came for mass.
to see me.
and like.
i didnt ask him to come.
and i told him i couldnt go for dinner with him.
not cos i couldnt.
i didnt want to.
he told me it's alright.
so we left. marc, yen yen and i.
and i realised.
it's too much.
i cant take it.
not anymore.
no more loves.
no more <333
no more (:s.
frankly. i put it across.
SORRY. no.
i told him hes been nice.
but i dont feel the same way.
crushed in less than a minute.
i feel so mean.
you have no idea how awful it feels.
how guilty you feel.
how much you feel like crying.
you feel like the person you rejected.
he said he'd take it slower.
to not rush.
he asked for another chance.
to give us another chance.
but NO. SORRY.
so it ends.
there goes another heart.
"you realize that those angels you saw
weren't really too faraway."
you made me realise that.
and moved me with those words.
sprinkled in glitter.
2:24 PM
