Thursday, October 26, 2006
when you're down and out.
and your world's all upside down.
look up in the sky.
you'll see a rainbow smiling.
cos a rainbow's an upside down smile.
i just realised that today.
when i got SABO-ed by MAG AND JANNAH.
HURR!
Like some miss universe questions answering thing la!
coach barry.
haha.
i had to answer the question -
if you found out you only had six months to live, what three things would you do.
i was like.
QUIT SCHOOL.
spend more time with my studies,
and more time with my friends.
and another qn.
er.
i cant rmb.
but i said smth like.
i'd prefer to be less academically driven, and yea. basically more fun la.
and he asked me if family meant a lot.
and i was like YES.
and i meant it.
and then he was like, when you see your friends successful are you happy.
and i was like yes.
and inside, i was thinking.
i cant bear seeing my friends sad.
it's just smth in me, that cant stand that.
which is the reason why i'll go all out to cheer them up.
and yea.
even if it means making their sorrow my own.
it's a sacrificed i'm called to make.
and the guy said that was my dream.
to make people happy.
to make sure no one around me's sad.
when i see someone sad, even if i dont know the person well, or at all, it's just in me to make them smile again.
and when i was in the hall, i was so concentrating on telling mag and kannah i'm gonna kill them, that only now i realise.
that's my dream.
to make people happy.
it's so happy seeing people happy.
it's a feeling you can't buy.
it's a feeling no one can give you.
it's a feeling you reap.
it's a feeling that makes me happy.
and making people happy is my dream.
thanks man, that guy, for helping me realise that.
sometimes, when i cry, it's not cos i'm sad.
it's cos i'm happy.
SO HAPPY.
and i'm just like yea.
happy.
now i realise.
when i watch movies, and cry,
it's not cos i'm sad for the characters.
it's cos smth in me just realises how grateful i am for everything.
when i said i want a rainbow on my wedding day, i meant it.
sprinkled in glitter.
9:18 PM
