you know how you sometimes get that sinking feeling.

like the feeling that you actually need someone.
someone as in. someone special.

and how you wish it was someone.
but at the same time, you're telling yourself no.
HAHA, i'm confused.

very confused.
all the rainbows in the world couldnt hide my confusion this time.
mmhmm.

i dont even know if i'm in denial.

and yeah.

it's complicated for me
isnt it always!
i think i make it hard for myself.
HEH.

i always can't tell whether i like someone.
and i always cant tell whether people like me.

and when people tell me, i dont believe them.
until i realize.



ooohya.


I said I DONT.
and thus i mean i dont.
and yet i wish you'd say you'd paint a rainbow for me.