Tuesday, February 06, 2007
i dont know her.She stares blankly.
Blink.
Blink.
Blink.
Faces are faceless.
colours blend into colours, that blend into other colours.
She’s looking.
Seeking to efface all worry.
Wanting to efface all sorrow.
but no effacement.
An ourie atmosphere.
of miscoloured feelings
she gives up.
just take her eyes away already.
so she wont have to see this keep happening.
all the tears.
and hurt.
she knows not reason anymore.
maybe it’s hiding, maybe she’s just blind.
She keeps looking.
She doesn’t know what she’s looking for, she doesn’t know if it’s even there.
She’s just holding on.
Everyday is just another day.
It’s like she never knew a rainbow.
There goes her consolation.
It’s vanished amidst the chalcedony pillars.
Columns of strength which seem but oblivious to her frailty
Everything’s just screwed.
So many voices.
they’re screaming.
one voice one thing, another-
Another.
Everything’s a mirror to her.
All this mawkishness.
Everything’s just screwed.
It’s all messed up.
She cant see the cloud layers anymore.
She’s so screwed.
Everyone expects something.
Everyone demands something.
She cant win them all.
She knows this, but she cant even convince herself.no conviction.like how freaking pathetic can she get.
She’s this.
She’s that.
She’s this.
She’s that.
She’s this. She's that.
She doesn’t know who she is anymore.
She used to.
Guess she listened other people too much.
It takes more to hold on to life than to end it.
She's guessing that's just irony.
maybe, just this once she's right,
it is.
you never read this.
I'm sorry. Everything that goes wrong, is my fault.
I'm just screwed.
i'm sorry to everyone whom i told i'd always be here for you.
just that i might not be anymore.
sprinkled in glitter.
8:13 PM
